Merry Christmas baby

It's Christmas time again,
And you're still not here.
This is, after all,
The most child focused time of year.
Last Christmas time
you were in my tummy,
It's so hard to believe
I'm still not Mummy!
You're bauble hangs
with your 4 siblings' baubles  on our tree
Will we ever have a Christmas
With our babies, your Daddy and me?
I'm hopeful for 2017
This may finally be the year
When, whether mummy or not,
I learn to love with peace here.